The road back to me.
In the year 2000 at the age of 39 I began the “road back to me” and by me, I mean the ‘real me’ not the personality that Pamela showed the world.
I had hit a particularly low point in my life, due to personal circumstances, which led to clinical depression and addiction.
I had been reaching out to spirit for answers and to find direction, however not fully aware of it at the time. I couldn’t see much point in anything at the time, even though I had a young family and older children too. I was depressed and the joy had gone out of my life sadly. Yet that brought about the changes that were to come.
Discovering Reiki
I saw an advertisement for Reiki Healing and decided to give it a go. I had read a little about it from books in the local library.
I enjoyed my Reiki healing and felt so relaxed afterwards and different in a way I can’t really describe, like I was more connected to myself. The Reiki healer was running a Reiki first degree course that coming weekend and asked if I was interested in coming?After a restless night I decided to go. Probably one of the best decisions I’ve made.
I loved being able to feel the energy and the very idea that I could do healing on myself and others. I did a further two Reiki degrees and am now a Reiki Master Practitioner since 2007.
I went on my own healing journey after the Reiki course and apart from receiving Reiki treatments I tried many other healing modalities, from body work, sound healing, breath work, past life regression, etc. This brought a lot of emotions to the surface and a lot was cleared from my body that had been long held in.
I hit my a very low point, a healing crisis in 2008, the Chinese refer to this as Dangerous Opportunity, this was a scary time for me. It felt like I was losing my mind at times, yet with some help and a lot of rest I came through it. I had basically lost my ground, after having many healing sessions and body work, so much had come to the surface it totally overwhelmed me. I had taken on too much too fast, however that is how I chose to approach it.
Aura-Soma
Around this time I discovered the Aura-Soma colour system, which I still continue to use today. It really works on a soul level, brings deep healing and supports with your spiritual and personal growth.
Aura-Soma is an innovative approach to soul therapy that relies on bottles of dual-coloured liquids that incorporate plant extracts, essential oils, the energies and extracts of precious and semi precious stones. The energetic properties found in the liquids interact with the individual’s aura to help support equilibrium in the body, mind and spirit.
I continued to do Reiki on myself and with some clients when I felt stronger in myself and began reading A Course In Miracles https://acim.org which I have studied off and on over the years. It helps me to put things into perspective, and is a form Spiritual Psychotherapy.
Angel Cards
After Reiki 1 I opened up to angelic energy and began reading angel cards, which I still do today. My first ever deck was Angels of Light by Diana Cooper, I read a lot of her books too. A little light on Angels, a Little light on Ascended Masters and A little light on The laws of the Universe.
I have given readings over the years. I am an intuitive and work with the Archangels and Ascended Masters.
I love when a person leaves looking and feeling lighter that when they came in, often really glowing. A healing often takes place. The client will have more clarity and sense of what steps to take next, should they wish to. if you feel called to have a reading let me know.
Colour Therapy
I studied Counselling and Colour Therapy and really enjoyed using these skills together to help clients.
I completed The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron in 2007/8, which was a real journey of self discovery. It opened up my creativity which had been long blocked for many reasons. I went to a few Art Therapy sessions, which was insightful and healing.
I began to paint at home and attended a few local painting classes which I loved.
My daughter bought me A Mandalas of The World colouring book for Christmas around 2007. I have loved colouring in since early childhood and is still one of my favourite things to do. This was in retrospect the book that sowed the seed of the Flower Of Life Colour Oracle.
My healing journey
The healing journey is not always a smooth path, there are many bumps in the road and mistakes made, however that’s how we learn. Self forgiveness takes time. In 2015, and with a deep desire to make a different and more fulfilling life for myself, plus finally face some long suppressed emotions, I made the decision to become sober, there were a few attempts. My emotions would overwhelm me again and I felt I couldn’t cope, so used alcohol to numb them out. Now I was ready and quite frankly “sick of it.”
I reached out to God/ Jesus/ Mother Mary to help me. I repeated a prayer for around 30 days or more. I still use it today when I’m working through something and need extra support. It was given to me by a healer I went to.
I will share it here. I believe it helped me, along with my sincere intention to make the change.
“The miracle working power of Jesus Christ is released in this situation now for the good of all concerned “
In 2017 I made the biggest change of my life. I left my hometown of Lerwick in Shetland where I had lived for 56 years. It was really hard leaving my family behind. I have five children and seven lovely grandchildren, who all live on the Isle but one. I was assured by a medium and healer I had gone to see years previously that my family would be fine when the move came. I had always known deep down I would move at some point.
It was what I was being called to do by Spirit and my higher self, it was what I had been praying for. You never know ‘how’ a prayer will be answered, it often looks a bit different than what you may have expected. There was an inner restlessness and a feeling my work on Shetland was complete. I had no more energy to give.
Archangel Metatron Colour Healing
There was no coincidence that this was the year I had completed Archangel Metatron Colour Healing Level 1 with Amanda Ellis of Angelic Celestial Colours.
After the Divine Light Attunement, I could feel things beginning to move and shift within me.If you feel suck in life or need direction, Archangel Metatron is your ‘go to’ but be prepared for change.
I have now settled into mainland life, though it took time, I have the time and space to enjoy my interests and hobbies, in a lovely environment, and to continue my healing journey. It is peaceful here, and I have the luxury of the sea close by and trees all around me. That is a big deal for a Shetlander.
The Flower of Life Colour Oracle was born
The Flower of Life Colour Oracle has been a two year project which I’m still working on. I hope to have them published before long. I have shared some of the cards in the Gallery. A selection from The Flower of Life Colour Oracle I will go deeper into their meanings in future posts.
The full deck has 44 cards. The messages and colours I chose were channelled by Spirit. They are all hand coloured by myself in pencil.
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“Never give up on yourself or your dreams.” Pamela Williamson.
“ To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.” William Shakespeare. Hamlet
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